Day Three

     This was a Saturday. I woke up with my eyes stinging since I had been crying the whole night before. Anton is home on Saturdays and I was really thankful someone was going to be here to push me through the day. Anton and I both felt like we were in a fog. We didn't feel like going anywhere...there's food out there. Food we can't have. We just felt like laying on the couch, feeling sorry for ourselves and talking about foods we were craving. This was my pizza and garlic bread day. I wanted garlic bread so hard. We watched TV all day long and made painful noises whenever we saw food or someone eating. Luckily, there were no tears today. I made it through,  but it wasn't easy.

     I got a call from my friend saying that her sister was about to give up after only day one! This got my juices flowin' (pardon the pun), so I called her and after many, many words, I talked her out of quitting. I told her about my meltdown the night before and about how she was part of the reason I kept going. If the three of us girls needed to keep going just to not piss each other off and for no other reason for now, then so be it. That can be the reason because honestly, my friends and Anton were the only things that kept me from driving to Carl's Jr. to get my burger that night. She made some juice as soon as we got off the phone and kept trucking along. That made me feel really good and really strong. I had a huge temptation last night that I resisted. Again, this is the hardest thing I've ever done but I did NOT give up on myself! If a 375 pound man can do this, then so can we!!!!!!!!!!

     I could not have done this if I was alone. If you really want to get into this, grab a buddy for support. You WILL need each other.